I’m overeating again, but that’s nothing new. What is more interesting is that a) I have started seeing a new psychologist, fiiiiiinally; and b) I have come across a new tool.
I stopped by the library one afternoon last week and found myself paying off a fine I hadn’t intended to pay. So I could borrow again. To the self-help section! I was looking for a title on CBT but I came across a book called ‘Freedom from Emotional Eating’ by Paul McKenna. Sounded good to me. I’m only a few chapters in but it is already resonating with me in a way that no other such book has. Plus, it has great reviews on Amazon. It’s exciting.
And my psych is good. I like her. I intend to go deep and get ugly. I hate to have to do it, but it’s the only way I’ll heal. Gotta lance that boil, so to speak. No bandaid solution is going to free me from BED. I eat for a reason, I know exactly what that reason is, and I need to deal with it.
I’m going away to Mallorca for four nights next week with a friend. We are aiming to have a reasonably wholesome holiday, doing lots of physical activities, and cooking a lot of our own food. Our previous holiday to Spain was largely a messy, if hilarious, blur of silliness and sangria, so this will be a nice change. I was going to leave the book at home, but I think I’ll take it with me. No time like the present to get started, right?
It’s hard to be positive when most of my clothes don’t fit me and I am overeating pretty much every day, but these are two good developments. I’ll just wait and see what happens.