am I doing, binge-eating again? I know too much. I have come too far to keep backsliding like this.
It frightens me to be in this newly chubby body. I feel panicked and powerless. I want to diet again, so badly. But I promised myself that I would not, after the last one backfired.
So, feeling panicked and powerless, I eat. This makes no sense. Why do I do it? Why?